10.04.2009

I feel like I am being completely avoided todayy.
You didn't answer my text.
You didn't seem to friendly towards me today.
You.. idk.
My room .. is so empty. It's weird. I don't understand how people can have nothing on their bedrrom walls.
It's soo.. barren. And cold. I can't deal with it.

Anywhoo.
Decision Sidney made today:
I'm done. Over. Finished. Peace out.
It's not worth my time. I have turned the switch off.

I love how I can do that with my feelings most of the time.
Just flip them on and off.
It's an amazing talent that I believe people acquire through lots of practice.
Which. I do believe I've had.

Uhmm.

I have a lot of things I want to say to people....
But I'm not going to say it.
Cause what I really want to say to people would probably make me a lot of enemies.
Soo I think it might be best to keep all these thoughts on the inside.

I've had a crap week. And I am really glad that it's over.
And to tell you the truth.
I'm am thrilled that I am going to be moving.
It's like.. a new start.
Clean slate. Again.
New house. New school [again]. New people. New boys. New drama. New pillows :D.
I can't wait for my move to be final. To be settled.
I hate being so all over the place.
I've always been al over the place.
My entire life.
I just can't wait to be done moving.
And to be settled with my almost brother, my mommy's boyfriend, my mommy, and my brother<3.>

Anyways.
My wrist hurts. I killed it moving today. Lovely, right?
I'm leaving everyone with a secret.
Then I'm outt.


Secret: I don't ever believe someone when they promise me something. And I seem to trust someone less with everyone promise they make. Stop making them; I'm tired of everyone lying to me.

/plain walls.