9.02.2009

Stop being so damn cheerful.
Especially when I've seen you for 15 minutes in the last 3 days
and WE LIVE IN THE SAME HOUSE.
Really, I think it is great that you are finally happy and totally in love with this guy who loves you back just as much.
But I really wish you would at least PRETEND that you like being home when I'm here.
Life pretty much is lonely.
Me and the zillions of pets we have.
I do the cleaning.
I feed the animals.
I do fantastic in school.
I stay in touch with my brother, unlike someone who supposedily lives in this house with me.
It's like I already live alone.
I'm 16 and alone in my house all damn day.
Not only all day, but all night too.
It's ridiculous.
And I'm tired of you sounding so effing cheerful towards me when I'm nothing but pissed off and hurt towards you.
You act like you don't hurt me everytime you leave me alone.
Sure. Most teenage kids would love to have the entire house to them selves all the time.
Okay. That's great for all you teenage kids.
But it's different when you go through it you're entire life.
And it's different when your parents CHOOSES to be gone all the time, and not just gone from work.
Cause then you sit and think damn; you really don't wanna be around me.
How would that make you feel?
To know that your parent can't even spend a few minutes with you home?
Ugh.
I'm so pissed off right now; I wanna cry. :/
a;sldkf

FML.



//wish me luck for powder puff